i need to quit drinking.

friday night i thought [d.] was supposed to be at a party, with some girl who wants him. view me being slightly depressed. so i decide to go get trashed with holly...didn't stop drinking until 5:30 in the morning when i started puking.

i neeeeeed to quit drinking.

last night was odd.

holly and i went to see ry ry's band (ELG)'s show at botan. fun fun, talked to one of the guys in neutral red for awhile.

i love shows. punk, ska, metal, acoustic...anything with energy. i love that after-show high you get from knowing you saw something created. that energy rush from the beauty that is live music...

after the show there was something of an orgy on craig's couch. holly managed to get on both jayson and craig...i'm not sure how i feel about that. jayson is my best friend. craig is my ex. and both of them come before her...so if she hurts either of them, friend or not, i'll kill her.

sort of a bros before hoes sort of thing, only it's good friends before new friends thing.