so yes, my life just got that much more complicated and for some reason, i don't mind at all.

and GODDAMN.

it's not that i didn't WANT to sleep with him. oooooooh boy no. it's that sometimes i think he seems to, from what little i know about him, reflect too much on his decisions, question himself too much. and i was afraid that if i slept with him right away that i'd get too attached to him and be heartbroken when he leaves.

but i like the boy.

and he's not really a "boy" either. he's definitely a guy. and a nice, funny, and sensitive one at that. we share a lot of similar viewpoints and an addiction to nicotine.

and it's not like he's your normal idea of the kind of guy i'd be attracted to either. some of you know me well enough to know my "MO", basically wiry little emo/punk/indie boys...he's not. well, he's kind of an indie boy...

i don't know. i feel like i don't even have the right to like him. like he's waaaaaaaay out of my league.

hmm. i think this requires a trip to omaha tomorrow to see bright eyes. of course, i was going to do that anyway. eeeeeeeeeeeeeee what a good week.