so people are always smarter than i give them credit for. or maybe i'm purposefully not vague enough in the hopes that they'll figure it out on their own (and they always seem to, no matter who it is). unless it's drew, because drew has like ZERO common sense.

yeah, i'm a little bitter about the whole drew thing. i shouldn't be, but i am. and i'm actually kind of worried about him. apparently he's sleeping erratically and not getting online. i hope he's okay.

servo asked me if he was the one all my friends didn't like when i was online last night. i really didn't want to have to say yes. i feel shitty telling someone that people dislike them. i know i'd feel like shit if someone told me that a bunch of people had a problem with me.

i told him he could come live on our futon like hanna already does. it's not like we don't have people here all the time.

i only had 4 cigs yesterday, and i've only had one today so far. and that was at 7:30 this morning. so i'm really cutting down. now if i could just quit drinking...but smirnoff ice is soooooo good...

i got no secret but this, i don't seem obvious, do i? ::smiles::

this song reminds me of drew. ::sad face:: i hate him, but i miss him. i hate him for making me hurt. i hate him for a lot of things. i miss his friendship, hugs, and sense of humor. i really do hope he's okay.

i don't wish pain on anyone.
i just want to be liked.
that's all.
it's not that big of a thing, is it?