so i might have asked out a boy tonight via AIM...who i've met only once while drunk. but it's not a big thing, just a get to know you thing. but i find him cute, and interesting, and things like that.so kate is happy, though not drunken. though she drank a sixer of smirnoff ice. damn tolerance, damn it to HELL.
and said boy happens to look rather like dave grohl from the foo fighters. casey, don't kill me. i swear i won't be evil.
i'm just happy. with the promise that my life has right now. and i don't think that i'm depressed at all. though i am a bit blah at the idea of crawling into my futon alone. without someone there to tell me things are okay. to hold me. to let me pretend that someone cares.
i want that more than anything, more than sex, more than money, more than other friends.
i want to be cared for.
so now i'm off to bettendorf for the weekend. should be a motherfuckin blast. w00t w00t. holly and i are gonna have fun. and then i have something to look forward to for next week. i'm nearly giddy to be getting out of town for four days. i really think i just need a change of scenery for awhile.