i talked to drew tonight. it's ever so easy to make fun of him. i know a good many of his faults, having been on the recieving end of many of them for a time. and he's still the cocky ass he's always been. and i realized something while i was talking to him...i don't miss him anymore. as a friend, yes. as a relationship...not a fucking chance in hell. though i wouldn't mind seeing the current relationship he's in bomb. he's still seeing the girl he dropped me for.mwah ha. i'm evil. really. i'm the devil. i can steal souls. i swear...ummm...i gotta go.
not really. i just realized that i was being completely and utterly retarded.
good old kate, always there to be laughed at.
that's me.
i don't know how much else i'm good for.
for some reason, i'm really depressed tonight. i don't know why. it was a good ride home, i just started feeling like complete emotional shit as soon as i walked in my room. just a downer kind of day, really. maybe it's an overload of depressing music.
all i want in the world right now is to feel wanted. i'm glad someone does. but i don't know if i should. so hey. we'll find out, i guess.
sleeping alone is so goddamn shitty. it's so much nicer to fall asleep being held safe against another person. it doesn't matter if they're just a friend, or someone you're dating. as long as they're someone you care for.
i just want to be held, and to pretend for awhile that i'm something special.