i was supposed to go drink with limbo and danelle tonight, but noooooo...they ran off to friley before i got back from the shiloh church/amazing killowatts show. you know what? that just sucks. i'm pissed.

andy's drinking with some other wench tonight and it makes me feel like shit, despite the fact that i know i can't be jealous. i have no claim to him. i just wish that i did. i want him to be here, i'm so lonely. he makes me happy.

and now i'm so alone. i want to cry. i had so much fun today. i saw neal at the show, and poked him in the stomach a few times. i love that kid. he's a good guy.

and now i just think i'll go curl up into a little fetal ball with my blanket that might still smell like andy and feel sorry for myself.