don't you see how much i'm dying without you? you see how i'm hurting? do you see how much i want to take every fucking thing i did back? to never have done any of this shit?? to have you back, i would give anything. i would give my life for one more minute. for one more kiss. for one more "i love you, kate". for one more of those loving looks. for one more touch of your hand.

"god baby i miss you"

i'm chain smoking and drinking because i'm trying to forget...holly's with me and she'd never let me do stupid shit on her watch...